“The more I made exercise about spiritual growth and discipline, the less I focused on the weight. Each lost pound was not a quest to get skinny but the evidence of obedience to God.”
I woke up this morning, did some stretches in bed, sat up, did a few more stretches. Ouch. This is my first thing in the morning routine. The following is pretty much Mike’s and my conversation most mornings too.
“How are you?”
“I feel like I’ve been ran over. My days would be so much easier if I wasn’t in so much pain.”
“I’m sorry, Babe.”
“It’s ok.”
And you know what? Most days I really mean it. “It’s ok.” I have come to accept the pain that I live in, and although it’s uncomfortable and makes everything more difficult, it keeps me close to the Lord, and because of that, I’m ok with it. Today was not one of those days. The pain has been really bad the last couple days and Samuel has not been sleeping well, so those late night snuggles take a toll on my body. He did sleep through the night last night, which is probably why I was so irritated that I felt so bad. I thought I had slept well, I should be feeling good. Not the case.
I got up and got my coffee going, got Mike’s iced coffee in his hand and kissed him goodbye. I went to the couch to drink my coffee and grabbed the remote and turned on the TV. Before the picture even came up, the Lord reminded me that I had not spent time with Him and that my day would be worse off if I was in pain and running on my own strength. I turned off the TV and grabbed my Bible. The Psalms have been ministering to me so much the last couple days. As my focus has been obedience and reliance on God about my food issues, the Scriptures are coming to life. I had my quiet time, prayed for my family, thanked the Lord for the work He is doing in me and for my health (ironic, huh? I know though that I could be a lot worse off than I am and I am thankful for every step I can take, even if they are painful) and asked God to give me the strength I need for today.
Samuel woke up and fussed and I just wanted to stay on the couch. But that’s not what being a mama is all about! I got up and gave Samuel breakfast. Then the inner dialogue started.
“I’m in pain, I don’t need to walk today.”
“WALK, DAUGHTER.”
“I can probably only do a half mile…Is it even worth it?”
“WALK, DAUGHTER, IN YOUR WEAKNESS, I AM MADE STRONG.”
“Ok, Lord, I’ll walk. I don’t want to and I’m not even sure how far I’ll make it, but I will be obedient.”
Samuel and I made our way around the half mile loop in our neighborhood. It was such a sweet time of prayer and fellowship with the Lord, and fun for me to watch Samuel point to the trees, sky, grass, plants and dog dogs when I said the words. I walked 2 miles today. I never thought I would be able to do it, but each lap I prayed and asked the Lord for wisdom. I didn’t want to push myself too hard, that is not good for my health. I really sought the Lord to see if I should keep walking. I have never been so in tune with Him while I walked. Have you ever sought the Lord about what exercise He wanted you to do and for how long? Does God even care? Oh, I believe He does! When we are physically out of shape, I truly believe we are hindered spiritually. Let me give you an example. Samuel is my most important ministry during the day (Mike is my most important ministry overall, but he’s at work. :0) and if I am too overweight to get on the floor and play with him, or keep up with him at the park, or too exhausted and sluggish to really engage mentally with him, then I am letting my lack of physical health interfere with my ministry and God cares very much about that.
Let me remind you of the Made To Crave quote I typed above-
“The more I made exercise about spiritual growth and discipline, the less I focused on the weight. Each lost pound was not a quest to get skinny but the evidence of obedience to God.”
I have not thought about how much I weigh in 3 days. And for me, that is monumental. My success is not about what the scale says (I’m not even weighing myself for a month); my success is measured by the choices I make out of obedience to what the Lord is asking me to do.
I challenge you to pray about not only what you should be eating and how much, but what the Lord would have you to do to improve your health with exercise.